th memories && reminsicence

2008-11-12T05:58:00.000-08:00

I MISS YIWENNNNNNNNN ! )):
i need to get a job despoly .
i need $$ laa !
Jeff say he'll train me sometime in th future .
he better call horrr ! D: hmmphhff .
Yiwens online, but he aint responding .
wtf ? we should protest against hong kongs internet services .
andand ebuddy ! fr making yiwen lag to some extend where he cant even type a hello too me ! D:
or maybe its his chio hongkong cousins .
- distractions*
hes not replying !
): Jack went to phillipines .

OH YEAH !
yiwen replyed ! :D
Kevin. --> _____ Tonight will be the night that I'll fall for you says:
THE INTERNET SUCK COCK
LOLOLOLOLOLOL ! i miss that horny bastard laa ! ):
Kevin. --> _____ Tonight will be the night that I'll fall for you says:
IMVICKYSICK
so sweet ;D
and now hes off .
at least talk fr awhile laa hor !

1 month && six days more .
i'll be right here waiting dear yiwen !

2008-11-10T09:31:00.000-08:00

i miss dear yiwen ! ):
he left today/ytd, pangsehh laa !
what am i gna do here when hes in hong kong/ shang hai ?!
1 month 7 days till i can see/call/msn him again .
depressing laa .
anyway gaowan ask me go his taekwondoe class in amk -.-
sui bian him bahhs .
i officially want a job can ?!
need $$, no enough $$ liao lurr .
its like 1.34am laa, sibehh tired can ?
i went to pasir ris today with sean k, jack, sara and her friend, arrabel .
i saw nahdrah too ! shes so cute laa .
than went to saras house downstairs .
sibeh sui can ? kea jio by saras step dua ah beng friends .
primary six somemore . chaoji irritating .
i just miss yiwen too much ! ):
andand anyone know of jobs ? intro me please !

2008-11-06T04:45:00.000-08:00

baby i love you and i'll never let you go,
but if i have too boy i think that you should know,
all th love we made,
will never be erased,
and i promise you that you will never be replaced,
i love you yes i do, i'll be with you as long as you want me too,
untill th end of timeeeeeeeeeeeee .

i love you, yes i do .
but someitmes i really wonder dear, do you love me too ?
cus sometimes you sure act as you dont .
im reallyreally confused . ):
my friends once said this, do you love a person phyiscally and mentally ?
because i see no outcome of it .
and seriously, even if i do love you, will anything ever change ?
i dont even know if we'll be more than friends .
and you should my life is screwed, will it be better after that ?
all these fucking questions . AHHH D: how am i ever gna get th answers ?

anyway, chesters house was th loveeeeee .
i shall go edit than upload th picts ! <3

2008-11-05T06:58:00.000-08:00

15 more days
i love everything about you, baby .

im like so fucked up now laa .
im like getting screwed up cus my life officially sucks, big timeeee . D:
idk what to do anymore, im like lost in life .
and all i could do was bitch about it .

im talking to Ixoraaaaaaa !
and now im talking to sara and yiwen .

Prens onlineeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !
he makes me feel so much better, hes like my counsellor .
i love my brother =\

2008-11-01T08:57:00.000-07:00

ytd, at j8's kfc . damn, i look like Jack -.- Yiwens a crazy spastic !

SPASTIC SMILE, for SPASTIC PEOPLE . :'Ddiv>bleah, im like so lazy to do anything now .

lazy to blog, lazy to camwhore . andand i keep going out untill kena chaoji scolding laa .

nehmind, im not going out tmrw ! :'D

i miss truckloads of people laa ! likelike Alec and John Marie ):

i hope yiwen's going with me to peninsula on monday ! shop, shop, SHOP ! <3

i always have see random people at peninsula . hahahahahha .

im eff-ing hyperrrrrrrrrrrr .

i realized im even so lazy just to put a tag board, seriously, i should get one .

A7x rocks laa ! i <3>

andand Clayton let me hear th song a little piece of heaven, its random but niceeeee .

im only blogging to distract myself . but no matter how much i do, it doesnt keep me thinking of you, dear, i miss you . <3

YES ! its confirmed, me and yiwen andand some other people on monday afternoon, peninsula !

2008-10-31T23:55:00.000-07:00

im back to blog ! :D
went to kenneths house yesterday, chaoji fun laa .
talking to GAO WAN ! hes so GAO xiao leyy .

im currently missing you like fuck, seperations re painful .
i wonder how you're doing now and then, im distracting myself by talking to people like clayton and gaowan .
i miss th way you smile at me, i miss your senstivity and kindness towards me, i miss your tickling and poking, i fucking miss everything about you, boyyyyy <3
hope you'll be free soon, than i can see you.
i also learnt to cherish you, let me tell you, everything would be okay baby.
seperation and isolation fr 2 whole days . D:

anyway, i dreamt of my ______ _____ last night.
all th love you once gave me, how i miss it.
and now i have a chance to have you back by myside, but i dont think its gna happen, i cant bring myself to trust you like i did before, all those kisses and wonderful memories just left my heart broken.

Gao Wan and Clayton re like chaoji,chaoji funny people laa !
i hate history..i hate geo...i hate bio..i hate chem,,i hate phy..i hate math...i hate lit.. says:
u gt any blog
i hate history..i hate geo...i hate bio..i hate chem,,i hate phy..i hate math...i hate lit.. says:
lyk blog spot

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL !
yay ! xiiao mieo, kor online ! more distractions !
Clayton is remixing his own songs untill like damn nice laa !
okay, i dno what gao wan's talking about again . LOL ! according to him his english damn lann.
andand Terry was so mean yesterday ! meanie.
i couldnt remember where i put my slippers and had to walk home in socks, he just laugh and didnt even help me try to find it ! many things poked my feet kay !
claytons afking ! GRRRRRR ! D:
Gao Wans lameness is affecting me, so fucking gao xiaaoooooooo !
im boredddd, why got nobody to talk to derh .
YAY ! monk as in Jeremy th monk ! :D

Germany-German-Adolf Hitler?!...NAZI?!...MONK?! says:
$7 DOLLARS !!
monks so cute . i found someone too talk to ! :D

2008-10-29T08:49:00.000-07:00

seriously, im getting sick of everything you guys do or say.
why is it turning out this way ?
everything was perfectly fine,
untill one day; i spoke my mind.

my blogs officially dead. D:

im currently screwed up from th bottom of my arse, all th way to my head laa.
i mean, why is all th fucked up things happening ?
John Travis Paul Lim Sze How, I beg you, stop getting into trouble, we re getting all very worried fr you now. I almost fainted in shock too see you handcuff, you still can smile -.- Everythings gna be alright manszx ! be strong, i have faith in you. <3

Everythings just so fucked up now.
But im lucky your there too make it better.
you make me smile, your one of th little things i live for, im not even sure if i like you, seriously, you just bring light into my darkness.
Whenever I see you, you make me feel so happy and hyper, you make me laugh so crazy, you make me forget th rest of th world, its just like theres you and me baby.
Standing on th rooftop; everybody scream your heart out. <3

thanks fr people being there fr me especially Victoria' laogong, Sara'Hubby, Jiamin'Boyf, Kailin'Cutiepie, Jeremy'Monk, Sipeng'Monk, John Marie'KorKor.

And too th dearest John Travis Paul Lim Sze How, i hope your doing alright, thanks fr covering me. You're a serious hero, even though i had that little fault, you helped me. I know Alec is a bastard but hes your good friend after all. I seriously hope you re fine and stop getting into so much trouble, please.

2008-10-07T21:16:00.000-07:00

Effectiveness; Sex change.

Before

After.

Th wonder of technology.

their both not me horr.

See, I didnt reveal th identity.

veh long never post alr, lazy ah. EOYS ended(: it was kinda bullshit, never really study, not even last minute revision, what th fuck is wrong with me now a days ? im less hyper, and im growing into depression. just because im spastic doesnt mean im happy.
Most people who re reading now should know about th Jeff thing. I was like damn depressed over it laa, i mean like go jump down th cliff or something. after not talking fr you since i told you that i'd rather be friends now you appear and make me confused.

Dont get it wrong kay, i dont like him, th same things wont happen twice. but now your giving me so much pressure.

Anyway, thanks to My Little Johnny, who is older than me -.- you make me so much happier okay ? Your like a star, throwing me into th sea with th help of komodo ! And than before that you woke up at 6am just cus i called you and told oyu th story, and than went all th way to eastcoast to watch th sunrise with me. And when we were on th rooftop with sandra and alec you took me and ran around, I'll never forget how you were there for me, sorry i had to ditch you and pull you to tanglin cc with me.

Oh and going out with th flirty and EXTREMELY horny SJI guys. Yiwen, Sipeng'monk(: and kelly, who was pissed. Thanks laa. (: BTW, Vicky is copyrighted alr ?

I blogged so much today.

im slowly falling in love with you, but i dno why. Its got to stop kay ? I liked T-akafumi fr 8 months and its not about to fade, i know you dont like me and i know that you know even thought i rejected takafumi twice even though i like him was kinda cus of you.

EVERYTHINGS A BIG FUCK.

AND like what my dear clayton says; PARENTAL GUIDANCE is ADVISED, im vulgar.

2008-09-13T11:05:00.000-07:00

1. What's the most important thing in your life?
- family, aunty, bestest gan/friends, Sara Koh Twinneh And Victoria Ting Xiao Wei Laogong !

2.What's the last thing you bought with your own money?
-Oreo Milkshake ! :D

3.Where do you wish to get married?
- you huanlo ?

4.How old do you think you'll permanently own by your love?
- No Idea.

5.Are you in love?
- yesssss,

6.When was the last restaurant you have dinner?
- i no money, broke alr, still eat at restaurant -.-

7.Name the last book you've bought?
- books re bad fr health.

8.What's your full name?
-VickyPanShiYin AKA VeryPigSoYellow (VTXW ! )

9.Shared your secrets with?
- Laogong, Twinneh, Muijie, Chiobu, Prem Kor

10.The longest relationship?
- cant remember.

11.Boyfriend/Family to take care of you?
- No. Bestest Gans to takecare of me(:

12.Do you do your own laundry?
-NO !

13.How many children do you wish to have?
- not ready lah. plan so far fr what ? i tmrw also dno do what.

14.Hugs/Kisses?
-HUGS and KISSES !

15.Name a person, state 5 facts about her/him.
- Clayton. -Vulgar, -Funny, -Crazy, -Trustworthy, -Smoker, -dno liaos.

16.8 things i'm passionate about
- sleeping
- watching tv
- cooking/baking
- stoning ! :D
- Going hyper/crazy/spastic
- on computer
- sleeping
- sleeping

17. 8 things i often say.
- fuck
- knn
- beeeechhh. (Johnmarie/ Alec style)
- hahahaha
- lol
- what th shietszx ?
- damn your mother upside down lahs.
- you think you cool uh ?

19.8 songs you will listen to over and over again.
- disturbia
- shake it
- th secret
- thats not my name
- wont go home without you
- thunder
- lollipop
- In The Ayer

20.8 things I've learn this/last year
- secondary school sucks.
- my school teacher sucks.
- bestest gans re there fr you
- Clayton smokes turtles.
- SKL is good fr health
- talk to terry can vomit blood
- john marie attracts attention from outsiders
- jealousy KILLS.

TO NOEY TANG: wah lao eh. damn your mother upside down lahhs. quiz so many derh, stupid NOEY TANG !

2008-09-13T10:18:00.000-07:00

What type of person are you:
Perfect: Nobodys perfect(:
Tall: NO ! DEFINATELY NO ! but i wish to grow !
In your pajamas: uh. i guess ?
Left handed: NO !

Last:
Friend you saw: Maokang. -.-
Talked to on the phone: Sandra ! :D
Person to text you: JoHN MarIe !
Is today better than yesterday: Kinda.

Favourite:
Number: 1
Colour: Colour ? Pink !
Food: Dontknow ?
Place: home(:

Questions and answers:
What was the first thing you did when you got up this morning?
open my eyes.

Do you have anything bothering you?
yes, ALOT.

What is the last place you went?
kitchen ?

Do you smile a lot?
uh. nope.

Do you wish upon the stars?
yes. hoping my dream will come true(:

Are you a friendly person?
FRIENDLY ? OF COURSE. Duh ?(:

Where did you sleep last night?
Eh. Bed ? -.-

Why did you sleep there?
than where you want me to sleep ? you tell me.

When was the last time you cried?
last night.

What was your last thought before going to bed?
S E C R E T :x

Rate life as of right now, 1 being bad, 10 being great?
2

What do you hear right now?
Tv and my irritating RAINING aircon.

Does anything hurt you right now?
Alot. Yes,

What's your favourite month?
November&January(:

Emotions:
Are you missing someone right now: Yes .
Are you single: Yes.
Are you tired: Not really.
Are your parents still married: Duh ! such an arse .

Basics:
Real name: VickyPanShiyYin
Age: twelve going thirteen
Eye colour: brownnniieeeeeesshhhhh :D
Male or female: Gay .
Single: Yeah .
Smart: Terry said if i took an IQ test a baboon wld beat me. you say leh ?
Hair colour: BLACKKK .
Sweats or Jeans: Jeans?
Phone or camera: Phone.
Righty or lefty: Righty(:
Smoke or drink: smoke AND drink.

First:Best friend: Sarah Mao (?)
Award: 1st in school . ((:
Enemy: like i said, im friendly -.-
First pet: my small sister .

Currently:
Eating: Nothing .
Drinking: Nothing .
Listening to: Right Here Waiting .
Plans for tmrw: Sleep .
Waiting for: time to past !

Which is better with the opposite gender:
Lips or eyes: Eyes says it all.
Shorter or taller: Taller
Romantic or spontaneous: Bu zhi dao ?
Sensitive or loud: Loud ! :D
Hook-up or in a relationship: Bu zhi dao ? -.-

Have you ever:
Drank hard drinks: Hard drinks ?
Lost glasses/ contacts: cant remember.
Ran away form home: Yeah .
Broken someone's heart: Idk ? Maybe ?
Been arrested: No.

Answer truthfully:

Do you like someone?
i seriously dno.

Are you seriously happy with where you are in life?
Nah .

What time is it now?
1.45am. sialah why th quiz so lond derh ?

What colour is your T that you're wearing now?
pink,

What did you eat for lunch?
sausage and cheese parta + terrys vegetables.

Who was the last person you talked to today?
aunty

What time did you sleep last night?
12 plus.
Alec/ komodo dragon/ di. yelled with john marie, to destress.

Who did you cry infront of?
infront of a wall.

Who do you hate most?
moo-kerh-ji

Did you kiss before?
Yes .

What would you do with $1000 000?
bribe my teachers/ school.

Who was the last person you called crazy?
John Marie, cus he said hello to everyone he saw, which ATTRACTED ATTENTION !

Who did you talk to on the phone last night?
Victoria, i think.

Who do you love?
that special someone,

Who are you missing now?
Noey Tang [:

What school were you in and are in?
scgs&sgcs.

Did you wait for someone in the middle of the night just to answer him?
what talking you lah ?

What is your name?
My name is ?

When did your world appear?
when i was born ? -.-

What was the last song you listened to?
Whatever You Like .

Who was the last person you danced with?
Danced ? your mother.

2008-09-09T07:25:00.000-07:00

never blog for chaoji long. lazy. D:
uh okay,
sunday
i went to avrils concert with sandra dearest(:
rocked like shit, we were jumping and singing.
monday
very tired. cant wake up.
ohoh th moo-kerh-ji was checking if we did th geog, so she checked erins, and erin did th first to pages lah so heng she never see anymore.
she pick up mine only i say i never do, she ask me go outside do.
than i saw ixora ! she came out too. than ruying came out too.
we were looking inside th class and she said 'im happy only 3 people didnt so their work' but,
amanda than put up her hand say she also never do, than she wanted to send her out also but,
rebecca and rina also stand up -.- she was like 'WHO ELSE NEVER DO ?!'
like th whole class stand lah please, except yuewen, marrilyn and someone else.
but keelys a real humjikia -.- she went to tell her that she thought it was day 6 so she didnt bring her geog homework (just to avoid getting scolded) but WTF, day 6 also got geog lah.
wna lie, lie smartly(:
tuesday
today ruying was like 'yeah, yeah i smoke, i smoke pencils ! ' than i was like ' yeah, yeah and i smoke battries' LOL ! and i failed everything besides lang arts):
i got 64 fr lang arts, i beat jingwen and rebecca okay !
but i failed everything else;

physics; 43
geog; 42
history; dno, but i failed.
chinese; 48
maths; 34 (i officially suck in maths, but im not th worst kay !)
lang arts; 64 (my proudest marks! )

i officially suck in studying.
im gna get retain, i know it ! but like what clayton says;
' you re smart, but education ruined you dear.'
aw. so sweet. (:

im gna see him tmrw, that cute lil mat, which makes me go crazy.
i officially cant stop thinking about that lil mat):
but i still think of him too. like wtf am i doing.
and what about takafumi ? LOL ! old news.
but im gna see that mat tmrwwwwwwwwww.
if you dno what im talking about;
he is a mat, but hes not malay. but he looks malay. hes phillipino.
okay like everyone whos reading this should know who im talking about.
but very little people know my blog cus it top secret ! :D
if amelia reads this shes gna be like
;' OHH-MYY-GAWD ? ---- ----- ?! wtf ? vicky re you crazy ? i know hes very cute lah but hes shorter than you, and hes friends with carrot, carrots an ass, and HES SHORTER THAN YOU, and omg i cant believe it.' *faints
so what luh, shorter ABIT only. and when he hits puberty hes gna grow.
and maybe hes just short to you cus you re tall dear. and if your reading my blog now amelia,
yes i do like ---- ----- th person whod cute.
i know hes damn hongster lah but, but...
i keep thinking about him so yeah.
ABCDEFGJOHNMAIREQRSTUVWXYZ... now i know my JOHNMARIE next time wont you sing with me. get it ? its kinda obvious -.-
lucky, ALOT of people dno my blog that includes HIM, CARROT AND KOMODO ! :D

あいしてる　(iloveyou)

2008-09-05T10:15:00.000-07:00

(:
went out with john marie and komodo today.
they were suppose to go fr tuition but they didnt.
andand alec(komodo) went to buy cigs, he 陈公.
John Marie so happy nia. and he was damn hyper also.
they smoke, smoke and smoke. i just watch them -.-
than austin zo come -.- paisehness.
than carrot that sshole i hat him th most can ? so irritating zomggg.
than i tio pangsehd. ): ahya thats about it luh.
tired, its like 1.20 am. was talkin to muijie.

and what about me and him,
will it be th last goodnight ?
we'll see how long i can go alr ?
Day 2.
i cant stop thinking about you boy;
i think im in love with some one new,
&& im in 'Ell-Ohh-Vee-Eee i love you, do you love me ?

cus th more i hold on, th more hurting it will be to let go.

2008-09-03T09:06:00.000-07:00

my laptop kena confuscated. D:
Jordan toh is damn despo can.
he even told me he was despo. -.- never see someone despo untill leh that.
anyway on monday i went out with monk, chester and victoria.
i few years havent seen chester alr.
hes grown so tall ! out of all, i was a landslide shorter !

today i went out with victoria, sandra and rachel !
so fun ! went ice skating, victoria and rachel dno how to ice skate.
they use th children pole so gao xiao leh.
leg aching and now got blister.
than go kbox, durin kbox i sot sot alr. too high liao.
victoria says im regaining my cuteness, and i was like im always leh that !
she say i was damn emo that time i never smile one not cute luh. andand now i always smile look like teddy bear ._.
and now im talking alot, like last time and they ALL say dont go back into emo mod im damn funny when im high.
i also realized i changed -.- wierd.
oh prem forgived us.
i love prem kor manymany kay !
now its only john marie. i dno what he want me to do anymore.
sorry john): sorry kay ? i feel so guiltyszx.
damn i dno wheres my handphone. found it under my bed, i've been dropping my phone alot. its dying.
clayton has not been online. no one beats his funny hornyness -.-
go his blog, read this horny joke www.alliever-wanted.blogspot.com -_-
talkin to candice she so funny luh.
alec pierce his tounge. O: so scary luh.
i think my ass is still wet from ice skating. 0_0
congrats maria and yixuan ! :D last long ah.
andand be tiongxim you break her heart i go find taiji with you ah !
upload picts soon ! :D
btw theres manymany typOs, this keyboard sucks !

its like what they say;
relationships re like glass, sometimes its better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself by putting th pieces back.
so im not gna give a fuck anymore, im happy now, just let it flow like it did by itself;
cus i dont love you like i did yesterday.
uhs, well im trying ! :D
and im sure your happy to hear this, like im happy fr you !(:

missing you !

2008-08-30T01:28:00.001-07:00

i just want you to know; i found a reason fr me, to change who i use to be, a reason to start over new, and th reason is you. I found a reason to show, a side of me you didnt know, a reason fr all that i do... and th reason is you.
i love youszxz. and that i no need to show, cus you should always know.

im listening to hoobastank th reason ! :D
Jeff is in kota tinggi -.- faster come back leh.
so sian no one too msg except that jikang and freddie. not fun luh. -.-
so must faster come back ! :D
clayton suckssss ! :D i own him !
talking to him and victoria(who is away) on msn.
claytons playing some lame game. -.-
tmrw got student activity.
SHIT ! takafumi): i feel so lost and confused can ?!
confirm will see him tmrw lah. so bored lah.
Jeff, quickly come back hor.
maybe going sentosa later, now raining):
maybe around 5pm. hope so. (:

2008-08-29T08:54:00.000-07:00

i cant decide between;
- i dont love you- my chemical romance
or
- fall for you- secondhand serande
to put on my bl0g, i can relate to it currently. oh and i can reallyREALLY relate to this;
- Caution! girls.- stereo skyline.
what should i put man ?!

AHHHH :D / D:
i smile even when im sad, im hurt even when i seem fine.
hello, im in drama. i can hide my emotions.
anyway i went out with sandrrrra and elvirrrrrra today ! clar was suppose too go, she too lazy. --
i miss them ! )': like i miss youuuuuuuu (soulja boy !)
took neoprints, i ate alottttt ! D: and talktalktalk !
miss you lah ! oh and after that i dno how to go home.
call sara, never ans. call tingwei, never ans. call takumi even worst ah ! alamak talk shit to me lah. than in th end call freddie ask him fr directionssssss.
than took mrt to alujunie (whatever) and meet freddie.
than walk to PC too meet sara (loves), laura, wendaline, tingting weiwei, takumi, maokang(who i didnt see!), Terry (in th end never go), and zzzzzzomg takafumi's(SUSHI) mum was there. and that person who keeps calling me taka-sao. -.- jikang th hongster didnt go, stupid ass keep calling me HIS meinu. wtfwtfwtfszxzx ! not luh. Eh ! i taka-sao leh ! lol. jkjk.
and thanks freddie fr helping me and being my puching bag cus i was so pissed and emo over some stupid shietzxzx and stupid guyS ! hmmphhf.
yeah, sund got to go PC ! takaf is like finally going. stupid lyz korr and cheryl jie better go ah !

i really cant bring myself too love you.
ilove someone else alottttttttttttttttttttttttt. D:
and i cant just forget about it cus you tell me you love me. it takes time.
and i know your a real flirt even if you tell me your serious and show up at my schl too find me.
its not that im scared too see you.
its just that i dont wna.

sometimes i really wonder whats going on in your head.
i cant stand people who ignore me or show me attitude):
i miss you, like fuck. im becoming vulgar cus im sad.
i hate th 1 word reply thing.
im like your puppet;
you pull my heart up high when you like,
you slam it down hard till it cries when you like,
i maybe your toy now, but im breaking and suffering.
you re breaking my to heart.
so please dont hurt me, cus i know you re going too.

2008-08-27T06:11:00.000-07:00

lalala.
i feel so emo and so hyper at th same time lah.
how is that possible ? :3
anyway im like th most dao mei ever today.
schls boring....
clarrrie ask me walk her back after school. it was raining, she had 1 umbrella.
so due to her begging-ness and my nice ness i walked her home ! :D
i borrowed Amanda L. she so small size her umbrella only fit her.
i use ah i was all wet lah ! and th car splash water on me. and clar thought it was damn funny -.-
i was so emo today lah. and when i got back to schl i went to comp lab.
took off my skirt and socks jjust sit there with rachel tang, audrey and Tracy.
th song i dont love you by mcr so touching kay ! i was so emo than i was gna cry lah.
dno why also -.- than after that go fr detention.
ohoh ! and my new passion is cleaning boards !
than go watch wallll-eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. :D
monk make me laugh like shit lah ! th show was funny and cute andand touching !
than i told him my 'shortcut' which we took 135 all th way to interchange than cross road take 21 back. lol ! we could have just cross th road and okay alr.
ohoh and on th bus we prank call chester ! lol !
and whos name is actually viviek bobb ?! what kind of name is that ?
monk is a loser who messages himself ! rofl''
im not gna pay monk back his 7 dollars. muhahahahaha !
and i conf with clayton and vict. claydoughh says i sound like a guy -.-

sara; bullets !
jikang; ~~im not meinu !~~ HONGSTERRR !
clayton; your a quater malay !
victoria; 7 more hours dear !
monk; MS.CHUA ! :D
Jeff; its luck(:
Vincent; prohackerszxzx !
John Marie; im sorry di, dont angry kay ? i cant force th way my feelings go, you re pressurizing me. I love someone, and i dont think it can change. SORRY ):

{PERFECTION} is something i aim fr.

im just lying to myself -.-

2008-08-26T04:45:00.000-07:00

i feel so fucked right now.
so, yeah.
i know i promise myself i wouldnt cry over you, but i broke th promise.
like im betraying myself over and over again -.-
and i got hurt right after i recovered from my old wound,
last-last febuary 14, valentines day, i thought i was hurt than and it couldnt get any worst.
i was wrong again, 26th august 2008 i got hurt even more can.
like my life currently sucks, so leave me a message and i'll get back to you when it gets better. -.-

so i finally regain my hyperness today, after so long.
in th morning i was damn hyper, i dno why.
maybe its cus amelia, clarissa and me okay alr. or i dno.
than i was damn friggin emo after we broke. but i cant blame you, feelilngs fade not your fault right. (im so understanding ! :D) it was kinda mine, i should have been friends with you before making foolish/ idiotic/ stupid not to mention RETARDED decisions. but im glad we're friend again. and if i really, really like you after we know each other as friends than say. but yeah, im still kinda emo.
but like today is also th official day i regain my HYPERNESS, if you know me since around th start of th year you should know im like this crazy siao zhar bo full of hyperness, but after june i dno where all my shitty hyperness go, i just became so emo and i hate it okay. and now im hyper again like im on estacy or something. for those people who know me after i became emo you have known th wrong me. sorry. but im not shy or UNtalkative or paiseh or whatever. cus that was what i have been since june. and i hated it like shit can ?.
- I talk as much as i breathe (:
- im not paiseh, i still remember going to bugis with some guys i COMPLETELy dno with my darlings and running across th fountain with a millionbillionwillion people staring at me, even those boys who were thinking that i was damn brave. Eh it was fun kay ! and than some guai lan people from CHIJ come copy me, and we were all bitching about those girls !
- Im so not shy, thats th exact opposite of me.
- I love to Sccccccreeeeeeaaaammmmm !
- I dance at any time i like.
and if your not happy about what i do i suggest you get a life cus this is mine. :D
I've been told to stop dancing or screaming, i dont like it, and i wont listen so dont bother. (:

nahbehness-
i feel happy/ hyper and sad at th same time.
im only vulgar whe im sad or pissed. cus th truth is i loved him lah !
but yeah on th bright side im FINALLY back. since end of june, people have been asking me whats wrong, why was i so emo. but ohcrapszxzx ! im back baby.
this post is shitty long -.-
and yes i just finish one whole tube of m&&m's and opening th second.
randomness (: muhahahaha.

EDIT

THANKS; my loveszxzxzx !

i wna thankk a special person today.
its monk, despite his damn idioticness he was th one who made me happy ! :D
so i went out to watch kallang roar with him cus i was too damn sad and didnt wna be alone.
hes sick yet he still came. aw.
and he fucking made me laugh till i cired. ahahas ! :D
kallang roar is th stupidest show ever ! but it was damn funny lah.
and he kept on saying that th uncle is going to die after he eat th kueh la phis -.-
andand we were laughing at this super mohk guy -.- and i was like super ~~mohk~~ monk!
roflmao. That guy was like a fat chicken with th tinniest legs ever, still th best player ! and he did his gay walk ! lol ! and than monk walked me home, but he didnt wna take th long route which we didnt have to walk, instead he made me walk, cus his 'lim behh' go hom will scold him, sick, never go schl, still can go out. alamak ! nice person manszxzx ! :D
ohoh and i kept throwing pop corn at him ! :D
when we left th theatre he could open his own popcorn shop lah !
but he threw back at me lah, but not so much. thanthan we too lazy throw away he just flinged th popcorn box ( still with some popcorn left in it) onto th front seat infront and than we laugh untill my stomache pain lah. thnks monk ! you made me happy. :D
oh and victoria too fr cheering me up but than i made her angry buy playing th darkness and not listening to her mufiyan script.
oh andand too clayton for making me laugh due to his pervness and vulgarness, and telling me ites not worth ' such a bastard fuck fuck fuck shit bastard' LOL ! thanks lah ! th thanks i owe you is uncountable ! :D

2008-08-25T06:39:00.000-07:00

okay ! this is th second time i blog againn today. :D
ohoh and;
happy birthday monk/ jeremy ! :D
thanks fr making me happy today monk, when i was sosososo sad you make me laugh my ass off with your stupidness/ idiotciness/ craziness. and you didnt walk me home ! zzomg ! wth ! you suppose to walk me home luh, walk home alone so boring. andand you reated me to fries which in th end i didnt eat. -_- oh your sick ! ahahas ! on your birthday. get well soon ! :D

i feel happier now.
JEFF WONG JIAN CAI PWNSZXZXZX ! oh yeah !
i love you so much can ?! :D (and whats up with all th smileys ?)
im gna see you tmrw ! im gna be so pissed if i cant lah.
i miss you so much alr, wait 1 more day will die luh !
so i mustmustMUST meet you tmrw ! :D oh yeah ! :D

_____ & _______was pissing me off today, i mean stop being such a bitch, no one likes you, so stop haolianing ! bitch ! wna say something say in front of me lah ! so scared fr what ? secretly say behind my back ! scared i know ah ? dont need scared lah, humjikia -.-

i miss you.

2008-08-25T03:36:00.000-07:00

lalala. first post, my old blog, lets just say got some 'complications' i shall not mention why, cus i dont want mah fun.
victoria is so sad cus mufiyan is in camp D:
dear victoria dear, dont so sad, it pains me to see you cry fr 4 days. today th first day only you cry untill like wna die alr, 3 days more dear. :D
i miss boyf. i never see him fr 1 whole week kkay ?! D: i miss you till it hurts.
please say you will really meet me tmrw.
im afraid to lose you, you make me happy ! :D
anyway things re better with amelia and clairre.
but not so good with jingwen and ixora.
heck lah. i feel to depressed about boyf to type lah. D:
andand hes going kota raya on sat and sund. )':
+2 more days luh. andand today i book him luh. )':
dont feel like typing alr...

th memories && reminsicence

あいしてる (iloveyou)

cus th more i hold on, th more hurting it will be to let go.

missing you !

im just lying to myself -.-

i miss you.

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